December 5, 2013

Christmas Came Early...

Well, that's the biggest thing that's been going on around here lately. Most of you know as it's been on Instagram, Facebook, etc. But if you missed it - baby coming May 2014! :)
Everything is going good so far, no problems with my auto immune diseases or anything, so that's great. There's been so much love and support from friends, family, so many of you guys - know that it's all felt and appreciated. 

This has been a year of figuring things out, to say the least. Something had to take a backseat, and obviously blogging has been one of those things. There's just not enough energy to tackle everything sometimes, you know? Life dealt it's share of craziness and I've just been trying to hang on and keep up. All that to say, a huge thanks to everyone who is still reading, checks in, etc etc. Again, it means a great deal to me. 

So that's what's going on in my life. I'm around on Twitter, Instagram, blah blah - links are on the side. Now that things are settling a little, I'll get back to (more) blogging one of these days.

August 12, 2013

3.1 Phillip Lim Pashli - Classic or Castoff?


The 3.1 Phillip Lim Pashli Satchel. The first time I ever saw this bag it caught my attention.  My love affair with it has grown stronger, especially over the past year. Let's be honest though - this is an investment. I'm not spending anywhere near this much on a bag I'm not going to like in.... forever. No seriously. The shape is classic, the design is great, I want it in black, but the question still remains - is it a classic? Is it going to look dated anytime soon? If I did get it, I'd hold out for the Shopbop Friends & Family sale in October and get it for 20% off. Still expensive, but certainly much better. 

What are your thoughts? And what bags do you have your eye on lately?

August 5, 2013

It's the little things...


We all have bad days. (Right? I surely hope so.)
I made a post a couple of months ago about some of my recent struggles. If you follow me on Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, etc. (some links are over to the side, it's FashionsMaven for all of them), you see updates here and there on how things are going.
Honestly, it's pretty rough. There are a ton of side effects, there are complications, there are tough days... it can get a person down. 
I do have an appointment in 3 weeks where I plan to discuss either changing medications or moving on to whatever's next. It's time. 3 rounds of hell is enough for me. 
Anyway, so far the most important thing I've figured out is to appreciate the little things. Focus on them. Embrace them. Treasure them. 
It'll get you through. 
Last week on an especially rough day, I posted an Instagram picture alluding to what was going on and a couple of Tweets. The comments, responses, emails, texts, etc. - maybe it doesn't seem like a big deal, but it really turned my day around and helped me get through another difficult time. I don't overlook that, ever. It means the world to me. 
And I felt the need to share that, because I truly think it's important. 

"In the end, the most important thing to accept is that no matter how alone you feel, how painful it may be, with the help of those around you, you'll get through this too."

July 17, 2013

And now we pass, and just like glass...

If you've been around here awhile, you know I've more than my fair share of issues with my eyes. I've worn glasses since I was 6 and contacts since I was 13. When contacted me to look around their site for prescription glasses, I didn't believe for a second it could be that easy. My eyesight is so horrendous, I didn't think I could actually buy glasses online. (I don't know why, I buy almost anything online...) But anyway, I started looking and surprisingly found a few pairs of glasses that caught my attention. Ok, so I can order glasses online, and they have a nice selection. I still didn't think it would work out.
My last pair of glasses cost over $800. Yeah. Seriously. So when GlassesUSA said they'd give me a $50 voucher, while I was appreciative, that's really a drop in the bucket towards what I usually pay. Even after having to add a $59 super lens package because of my prescription, the total was only $187.
$187. And I usually pay $800+. (To be fair, they do have a 110% lowest price guarantee, so...)
Yeah. Sold.
Ok, so on to the good stuff. The style I picked was by William Rast and I'm quite happy with them. I got them about a week a half after ordering and have been wearing them ever since.
They offer a Virtual Mirror feature on their site, which is pretty useful for buying glasses online.

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July 1, 2013

Summer Lovin'

How is it July already? I don't know about the rest of you, but we're enjoying a pretty simple and relaxing summer so far. Here's hoping that continues. The above picture was taken during our week at Orange Beach in early June. Nothing better, am I right? Hopefully we'll be back in August.

As far as what I'm wearing lately, I've been living in either this Splendid shirt or the many other close replicas of it and either my dark denim shorts or white denim cut offs. 
Keeping it simple, my friends.

I caved a few months and bought this House of Harlow necklace I'd been wanting for, oh, years. It quickly became a staple.

 Other staples have included the Sam Edelman sandals I picked up at our new (and only) Nordstrom Rack. I'm assuming they were on super sale because they weren't all that easy to get on and off at first. It only took about 2 wears to break them in though, and wear them with practically everything.

The last summer staple would be the L'Oreal nail polishes I picked up in Royalty Reinvented, Not a Cloud in Sight and New Money (the clear is a top coat - decent, but no Seche Vite). They're all gorgeous! And as the picture and this post clearly are saying, I do ♥ summer :)

June 25, 2013

She's the kind of girl who'll fracture her mind 'til it's light...

She'll break her own heart, and you know
That she'll break your heart, too
So darling, let go of her hand

First of all, thank you all so much for the response to my last post. The support I received (in a variety of fashions) was so appreciated. I didn't have any expectations when I wrote that and posted it, I'd just reached a point where I knew I had to get some of it out. I'm thankful to have an outlet where I could do that. 

I really am going to try and get back in the habit of posting more. I do miss it and I'm still working on figuring out this whole balance thing - in blogging and in life. In the meantime, I'm also trying to figure out what the #%$& to do with Google Reader going away. Seriously, Google? I've imported to bloglovin' but honestly, I'm not blown away by it. I currently have Google Reader and bloglovin' tabs open in my browser and they're not matching up, post wise. Am I missing something?

Hope everyone is enjoying a lovely summer so far. We got back from the beach over a week ago but I fear my mind is still not back from vacation mode. Oh well, what can you do? Just go with it, I suppose.

May 22, 2013

So hard...

And sometimes I just want to wait it out
To prove everybody wrong
And I need your help to move on
Cause you know it's so hard
It's so hard

It's so hard when it doesn't come easy
It's so hard when it doesn't come fast
It's so hard when it doesn't come easy
So hard

I never, ever, anticipated I'd be writing a post like this. 
Yesterday was my first appointment with an infertility specialist.
There are the words I never wanted to share with anyone here, or anywhere actually.
I used to question why people so openly shared news of their pregnancies so early on.
I used to silently judge people who became pregnant without even planning it.
I used to wonder why people opened up such a deeply personal part of their lives with people outside their immediate family and close friends.
But now my perception has changed. 
Some of you know I have both MS (multiple sclerosis) and Crohn's disease. Two autoimmune diseases. Two incurable illnesses. Things I struggle with on a daily basis. They're both under control with a monthly infusion, Tysabri. If you've been around for awhile, you know that it took a long time to get on the medication and begin to get my health under control. 
I've also been married for almost 7 years. To the love of my life. To the man I want nothing more than to have a family with. And I can't do any of that while on the medication that has kept my autoimmune diseases in check for the past 2.5 years. 
After many, many doctor's appointments and months of deliberation, I went off of Tysabri, having my last infusion in October of 2012. I switched to a monthly steroid infusion that doesn't treat MS or Crohn's, but would hopefully keep the symptoms of both in check. A medicine that would allow me to try and become pregnant. It was considered safe to go off Tysabri for 6 months.
At the 5 month point I broke down and couldn't take it anymore. My mind, my body - it was too much. Too much stress. Too much pressure. Too much heartache. I needed a break from "taking a break". My Crohn's was also starting to flare again. For my health, I needed to be back on the Tysabri.
Any doctor will tell you that you can try to get pregnant for a year with no success and it doesn't mean anything is wrong with you. Without being far too TMI, there is no known issue with either of us. But I don't have the luxury of being off my medication for 12 months at a time, and also I'm 30.
So I've been referred to a fertility doctor, more than once, by more than one of my doctors. I don't know how much I want to even post about this. This post has taken a lot of time and effort, and I still am unsure about it - but I need an outlet right now. If for nothing else, than to rid my brain of some of the ongoing thoughts and stress that are taking up too much space right now. (I can't tell you how many times I've been told to "calm down" or "just relax" in the past 6 months. Easier said than done...) And since this has been my outlet for awhile now, well, this is where I'm starting. 

I can live for the moment
When all these clouds open up for me to see
And show me a vision
Of you and me swimming peacefully

May 8, 2013

I have hope, inside is not a heart - but a kaleidoscope...

All the colors
Of the rainbow
Hidden 'neath my skin

Hearts have colors
Don't we all know?
Red runs through our veins

Feel the fire burning up
Inspire me with blood
Of blue and green

I have hope
Inside is not a heart
But a kaleidoscope

That was a longer break than I intended.
What's been going on around here? Same old. Everything. Nothing. These are my standard answers, depending on the day. As far as the blog goes, there are things I would like to talk about and topics I'd like to broach, but there are aspects about that I'm still unsure about. I'm leaning towards yes, though. At the end of the day, the blog has always been an outlet for me. It just so happens that for now, the target of that has shifted somewhat.
In the meantime, there's always TwitterFacebook, and Instagram (fashionsmaven), if you're so inclined. 
Love you all and have missed blogging. I'm figuring out my footing - and I'll get there. Eventually. 

"The idea behind 'Kaleidoscope Heart' is that we're all sort of in pieces and broken bits on the inside, but somehow, when you look through them, you still see something beautiful and colorful and magical."
- Sara Bareilles

February 18, 2013

Little Indulgences

The first couple of months of the year have never been my favorite. It's cold and dreary, the holidays are over, I have insurance to deal with on an almost daily basis - it's just not the best time. However, I've noticed lately that I'm appreciating little things here and there and those are making a big difference in my overall mood. 

Aveda Rosemary Mint shampoo
I re-purchased this because it's a great clarifying shampoo and I was in need of that. I'd forgotten how amazing it smells and feels, though. It's like a mini spa treatment in the shower.

New candles
The lovely Elle from Elle Sees asked me on Twitter about what candles I'm using and loving right now. I just started burning my newest Rewined candle in Pinot Noir. My latest Bath and Body works haul had a Pink Sangria and Lemon candle and I can't wait to use those. Pink Sangria was a repurchase that I loved from last year. Lemon is new but I can't imagine not loving it as well. Having a couple of candles burning around the house at night is such a simple thing but it always makes me feel good.

Sex & the City: The Complete Series
An oldie but a goodie. I've started popping one of these discs in at night and watching a few episodes before I go to bed and I have to say - it's as good as ever. Or maybe when you've watched something 1000 times it's just comforting. Either way, I'll take it. 

Other things I'm looking forward to - diving into my March magazines (next best magazine month after September), taking a few days for a much needed getaway this week, making an appointment to get my hair cut and colored (once I figure out exactly what I want to do).

What are your latest indulgences? 

January 17, 2013


When I started this blog, I was about to start my last semester of college. I had no real plan in mind, no intentions really. I followed so many fashion and beauty blogs and that had always been a huge interest of mine, so naturally I knew that would be what I gravitated to. I posted whenever I felt like it, when something caught my eye or attention. 
In 2010 when it was becoming obvious a full time job wasn't going to happen as I was getting my health under control, I decided to treat this like a "job". I'd post 5 days a week, I'd read and comment on as many blogs as I could, I'd interact with the blogging community as a substitute for having a job and co-workers in my day to day life. I can't stress how much of a positive impact this had on my life. For most of 2010 my life was filled with doctors, specialists, blood tests, spinal taps, and eventually IV's as I was diagnosed with MS and struggled to also keep my Crohn's in check. 2011 wasn't any smoother between hospitalizations, 2 surgeries, and ER visits. I know blogging gets it's share of criticism for being trivial, petty, narcissistic, fluff... I could go on. But I loved having that as a distraction. It was the best thing to get my mind off of the depressing things I was facing on what seemed like a daily basis. 
The point of this isn't to ramble about my personal ups and downs. While my personal life certainly does infiltrate my blog, Twitter, Instagram, etc, I try to use all the various social media to focus on the things I'm enjoying. Fashion, makeup, beauty - all of it. In the past few years as I've gotten my health and life under control and began to feel a little more comfortable and a little less panicked, I've decided to start doing things different. 
I love blogging. I love this community. I love what it's given to me. But while at one point I needed the structure of daily blogging to help keep me afloat, I don't feel like I need that right now. Instead I'm going back, in part, to how I used to blog. What I want, when I want, no set schedule. I have a couple of other ideas brewing but I'm not pressuring myself to figure all of that out right now. I'll figure it out when the time comes. Like the picture and the necklace I received with it have been reminding me, I just need to listen

January 1, 2013

Happy New Year!


Happy New Year!
What's your New Years resolution? I don't really make them, so this year is no different. Although last year I did say I would read more since I had just gotten the Nook, and that happened so maybe I should figure out something...

Have a good one :)